Thursday, March 3, 2011

Who Am I?

This question has been swirling around in my brain for the past several months. Our lives have changed drastically with the national media coverage, EMHE, and books coming out. They were wonderful things, but I've been very hesitant to say that they changed me. I never wanted the negative connotation to come with it i.e. "Fame changed her." It just sounded wrong.

Anyway, with all the computer crash/virus/craziness, deadlines, interviews, and regular life as wife, mom, and homeschool teacher, I've taken a hiatus from a lot of article writing and blogging.

Some of this was a good idea. I needed a break. Some of this made me feel guilty - because I was just positive that I was letting everyone down (and that the wonderful marketing people would get mad at me - LOL). And some of this just helped me beat myself up even more - because who really wants to read anything from me anyway? Right?

So I kept going back to the Casting Crowns song - Who Am I? And another beautiful chorus - Beloved. They both ask the question - WHO AM I?

Then Psalm 139 kept finding its way into my Bible Study, prayer time, and the words echoed in my brain.

I wrote in Welcome Home that I just wanted to be the best "me" I can be. I've failed a lot. But I'm excited to see what God will do through me - this cracked and broken vessel.

It's okay to have life's circumstances change you. It's okay to wonder who you really are. It's okay to leave it in God's hands and say, "Lord, I'm willing. I just want to do my very best for You."

Do you ever ask that question? Lord, who am I? I'm so unworthy?
Well, just keep reminding yourself that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. He doesn't call the equipped. He equips the called. He's not expecting you to be perfect. He just wants you willing.

To go and do whatever He calls you to do.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Wow. I sure did need to here this today. Wow.

Anonymous said...

I agree with Anonymous.
As always, thanks for sharing your heart with us. I noticed it up on Facebook too but wanted to share here.
I just don't quite know how you do all that you do. So i'm really thankful to read that you struglle with this too. Otherwise I was just thinking I was a completely failure all the time and you were superwoman.
I love it that you are so real. Thank you.
Kathy

Kerri said...

Hi Kimberley,

This is kind of unrelated to your recent post, but I have been trying to send you an email about this year's Douglas County Writer's Conference. Could you please email me at kmartin@dclibraries.org? I tried the "info@kimberleywoodhouse.com" address, but I keep getting box full bouncebacks. I'd love to send you (and Kayla, too!) an application to present this year. Thanks so much!
Kerri Martin
Douglas County Libraries